Lenten thoughts

Dear God,

I know Im a sinner and I held my flaws before my eyes. At times (rather most of the time), I cannot control my anger, bitterness, arrogance, sarcasm, cynicism and other negative and sinful emotions and thoughts. I don't know, I used to be so passionate, so idealistic, so full of zeal, so trusting and seems to be full of faith. But now, what has become of me. I tend to be a control freak that when things dont go the way I planned it, I get furious.

A lot of things has happened in my life, though, not on the extremes, but has brought me to this point of doubt, unbelief and faithlessness. Finances, domestic, family, work... every time I encounter some problems, instead of getting to You, I go to me, trying to solve things on my own and when things go awry, I blame You.

Father God, I have experienced your goodness countless times yet when trial comes my way I become a doubting thomas and at at times, I question you. Though I know deep inside no one else can help me except You and that everything should start and end with You.

I have been through a lot lately yet I know that you never have failed me nor let go of me, You have always been there and though sometimes I deny it, subsequent circumstances have proven time and again that you've been there. Besides, you'll never forget to fulfill your promise. You promised in your Word that you will not leave me nor forsake me and you always do.

Help me to pray constantly, help me to put my faith in You, and everytime I have a problem, help me to look to you first.

I love you God, I know you know. Help me to manifest it in thoughts, words and deeds.

In you I surrender.

Black Saturday 2011

Today, April 23, 2011 is Black Saturday and we just arrived home from day swimming at Villa Celedonia Resort. Nanay didn't want to go so she stayed home. We went there along with the Proj. 8 folks. As usual, Ron enjoyed it so much that he was crying while "binabanlawan". He fell asleep while on the van and when he woke up and realized he was home already, he went "amuk". We can hardly contain him.

While on the resort, he discovered that with salbabida, he will just float and not drown despite how deep the water is. He even wanted to go to the 10 feet area. On the slides, he can slide and drop in water 3 feet deep. He did this repeatedly. On the 10 feet deep slide, he went about 8 times with Daddy.

Summer Class Holy Infant Montessori

After serious thoughts, I decided to enroll Ron at HIMC and Dada and Nanay supported me in htis decision. Hence, on April 13 Dada enrolled Ron here for summer class. I reckon that he is going to need it in preparation for June nursery class. April 14 is his 1st day and I accompanied him. Here are the photos on his first day.

Ron is quite used to a classroom since he's been with Gymboree as early as when he was one year old. that He immediately got some toys and started playing. He like the blocks and the puzzles.

The following day, it was Nanay who accompanied him and I was told he kicked a girl classmate who kept on following him. He he.

Well, Ron I hope that you will get really good education, follow the path of righteousness with God and be successful.

OT: Me, Dada, Ron and Nanay watched the movie Rio at SM Nova on April 20 and there was just the 4 of us during that screening time.

April 2011 Trip to Carmen

My prayers have been answered, Ron is not scared of airplanes anymore and our ride back and forth is quite breezy. Ron in fact enjoyed the airplane ride I think partly because I allowed him to eat junk food. he he. I thought if I let him eat junk food while on the plane, it would lessen his fright. Turned out, there is no more need for that.

Our short trip to Carmen is for the purpose of seeing Den2 and her family. I ponder at first if we will push through taking into account some factors. Since it was just me and Ron, I was quite apprehensive that I wouldn't be able to handle Ron alone but it turned out ok.

So, on April 2, Saturday, we left home, Daddy brought us to the airport and was able to get inside up until the check in counters. Then we have to leave Dada as we enter the pre departure area. When we get there, we saw Ching and her Shane. After a few minutes, it was boarding already. Ron surprisingly seemed to enjoy the ride. When we get to Butuan, there was Nanay waiting for us. We took the San Frans route coz the road via Surigao nubenta is terrible. We arrived at Carmen around 4:30pm. Tatay was there of course. After resting, Ron and I went to the plaza.

The following day, we went to Habag and what a pleasant surprise, Mano Caping and his family were there too. Ron does not want to leave Habag since he was enjoying the beach so much. He almost cried when we asked him to leave na, good thing there was this boy about 11 years old who told Ron he can always go back.

Around 5pm, Den2 and family arrived from Surigao City and we had dinner. Ron was overwhelmed with the number of family members who greeted him that he cried and hide at my back. But after taking him out for a while, he calmed down but continued to stay with me. Ron got a remote control mini cooper from Janine.

The following day we went to Ilaja at Mana Haide's so Ron can ride the carabao. After, we went to the palengke.

The next day, we went to Munisipyo, Dada's grandma, CCES. Mana Daday gave Ron Ram-ram's old toys.

The following day, April 6, was our flight back. We took the Surigao route and indeed the road was terrible. When we get to Butuan, we stopped by at Dottie's Place hotel where Auntie and Uncle were staying. Ron wanted to stay inside the CR while I was trying to "deposit" ha ha.

Ron slept after take off but I woke him up upon de-planing. Bimboy fetched us. Late in the evening, Dada arrived from Baguio.

The whole Carmen trip, if there was one thing very notieceable is that Ron does not want me out of is sight even for a second, to the point that even if I go to the CR, he wants to go with me. But thank God for this trip. It may be short but its worth it and very memorable.

March 2011

We have been waiting for our healthcard to be renewed and we got word that its going to be on April. Denden says shes going home with her family next month so we planned in going home also even if the fare is going to be a little bit high considering that summer is fast approaching.

After serious thought, I decided to send Ron to Holy Infant Montessori instead of Young Achievers, the former is farther in distance and more pricey but if its for Ron, we aim for the best that we can afford.

This month Ron attended his last session of Learning Lab 2 at Gymboree Trinoma.

We have Globe Wimax or wireless installed this month but I have to have it terminated after I got my Globe DSL with landline. I also have my bayantel terminated.

I also sent Juvy home this month using the promo ticket that I booked last June.

We started attending Novaliches Evangelical Church on the last Sunday of this month.

February 2011

This month specifically on February 8, Nanay went home, after bringing her to the airport, me, Dada and Ron, stop at Remedios Resort for a quick dip and bonding. Ron enjoyed it so much, he did not want to go home but Dada has to attend to some business so we had to leave after about 2 hours.

Month of love, Dada gave me flowers while I gave him a card and a bouquet from rose petals, edible flowers ordered on line.

This month Dada usually is out to earn a living on weekends hence Ron, me and yaya just commute in going to church and Gymboree. We do grocery when Dada is free usually on Mondays.

We went to Cavite to attend the wake of Wowie’s (classmate in law school) daughter who died due to dengue. From there, we fetch Nanay at the airport who arrived from Carmen bringing plenty of toys that Denden sent from UK. Ron was absolutely delighted specially with the huge lightning Mc Queen which talks and runs.

Meanwhile, on Feb. 26, I went to Trinoma to watch Dingdong live when he was promoting a Bench Freedom Scent.hehe