Grateful to you God

It is proven time and again God that everytime I'm in dire need and seemed to be at the end of my rope, and despite that I tend to question you and lose hope, and become cynical and sarcastic, you always rescue me and never fail me. Last thursday a relatively huge amount (for me).

It came at a time when I needed it most and what i received has given me some breather from continuous onset of financial woes. Thank you Lord, help me trust in You at all times. You never fail me. I love you.

Ron's 1st week in nursery

June 15, wednesday is Ron's 1st day in nursery. He does not want to wear the polo and pants uniform so we give in and let him wear casual clothes. The classroom was filled to the rafters with mommies, daddies, lola's and yaya's in attendance all armed with cameras. After a few singing, the teacher asked the kids to wash their hands and afterwards eat their baon. Then she dismissed the class. After class, we went to SM Nova and Ron got to ride in a carousel and a helicopter which looked like a huge insect. We bought some grocery items and eat at Kennys where Ron spilled his drinks.

The following day, the uniform was a shirt and jogging pants but still Ron does not want to wear it. Daddy has to spank him with a belt thus the crying. He was forced to wear it in short. Today, the teacher asked them to recite 5 little pigs, Ron knows this already but he refused to recite in front of the class. Same when asked to count one to ten. I hope and pray that next time around he will show what he has learned and won't refuse to recite in front of the class.

On Friday, the uniform was a P.E. shirt and jogging pants and Ron wore it without qualms. On this day, Ron mas made the leader during their PE exercises, for a few minutes he did as told but when he noticed that I was taking pictures, he stopped, sat beside me and refused to participate.

Lord Jesus, as Ron starts a new and long journey, I pray that You will guide him all through out, bless him with superior intelligence, brilliance, wisdom coupled with patience, perseverance, discipline, determination, assertiveness, sense of duty and reason. I pray that he will not only excel and lead and strive for excellence and achievement but that at all times he will follow the path of righteousness, godliness and most vital of all, he will have a personal relationship with You, accept You as Lord and Savior and give You glory. In addition, I pray for his safety at all times, good health at all times, protect him from bad influence, accidents, bad elements. Prosper him in every aspect of his life. I pray that he will love you most and cast his faith and hope in You first and foremost. Thank you God. We love You. In Jesus mighty name I pray.

Playing in the rain

When I was a child in the town of carmen, it was common for children to play in the rain. This however is uncommon in the city.

But when rain started to get heavy in the last week of May unto the month of June, I introduced Ron to the fun of playing in the rain.And he so love it that on the second and third time, it was so difficult to ask him to go inside the house already. He keeps on saying there's still rain or that he is not yet finished bathing in the rain.

Seeing him having so much fun brought back happy childhood memories.

May 2011 ups and down

The previous month God sent prosperity but I dont know why almost everytime I received something, there's always an unexpected huge expenses. This time or rather again, its the FX.

Tatay wanted a vehicle for so long, we initially wanted to give him the car but he opted for the fx reasoning that its bigger and can accomodate more. No problem with that. Our problem is the engine is malfunctioning and it turned out needed an overhaul again. That would cost around P5ok. Bimboy advised that it would be best to buy a new engine coz the FX's engine had already undergone two overhaul.

I was pissed. When we have begun to slightly recover, here we go again with this thing. My heart is so heavy even writing about this. Ive undergone lots of stress because of that vehicle. Ive questioned God, become bitter and negative. Why cant we be given a breather from this huge unexpected expenses, its ruining us financially. I have no choice however but to do something.

As of this writing, the FX has not yet been fixed. Renen asked some friends to help him get a cheap but a nice engine. (update: The vehicle was successfully transported by land to Carmen last August)

On May 8, mother's day, me and nanay got a chocolate cake from red ribbon from hubby. Ate Rita sent a liter of ice cream. We also ordered delivery from jolibee for Ron and us.

Meanwhile, babe celebrated his bday last May 15, wet went to church, trinoma and let Ron play. Babe then went to Proj. 8 to see his relatives. O May 18, I stayed at home coz I was not feeling well but babe had to have the FX engine's stenciled and start the process for the white plate.

For some time, I have felt numbness in my heart because of some things, I become somewhat upset with God but in HIs grace He brought me back. God, please help us through this. Help me not to lose faith in any circumstance, help us to put You above all else and in the center of everything.

Robb symon's nursery summer

After the 1st week, Ron was not able to go to school, he got dry cough, flu and even LBM. So Ron was absent for 2 days. We brought him to his pedia and he got better.

When he returned to class with me inside the classroom, he became really makulit, noisy and rowdy. His teacher was trying to teach him something but he did not listen so he was able to get only one correct answer. His teacher, in front of the other parents who were there, told me that Ron is playful, does not listen and got only one correct answer. I was pissed and embarrassed so I wrote a letter asking for consultation with that teacher and the principal, Mrs. Geronimo. So, last May 4, I and Nanay talked to Mrs. Geronimo and Teacher Babes. I told them about how I felt as well as my apprehensions. Our conversation went well.

My problem this time is that I enrolled Ron for June opening and I chose the 7:30am class. This early, its so hard to wake him up in the morning, he even cries if we force him to go downstairs for breakfast and bath. I hope he can still adjust. It will be difficult to enroll him in the 10:30am to 1pm class coz that would mean he will sleep late in the afternoon and late in the evening which would also mean that I can't go to sleep early.

UPDATE: Ron finished his summer class yesterday, May 20. All through out summer class, he was as usual, malikot but it turned out he learned a lot. But before that, here are some anecdotes. When Teacher Babes threatened him that she will get his shoes coz he's malikot, he answered hindi kasya. When the guard told him he should not run around and cry, he answered, iyak lang pag wala si mommy.

Meanwhile, his worksheets show that he can identify letters already. Even in this computer, he can type na his name RON. And best of all, he can now recite this 5 little pigs nursery rhyme. I never thought he can do it. When he recited it in class, Teacher Babes, hugged him, maybe she was surprised too.

Cebu trip May 6 and 7, 2011

My decision to go to Cebu proved worthwhile. My decision to go to there was because of my myoma. Since August last year, when I found out i had myoma,I've been hoping from one doctor to another. I didn't want to undergo surgery even if some doctors suggested I need it ASAP. Others said I just need to monitor it. My folks wanted me to have it asap.

But since our HMO expired last January, I could not make a move yet during the interim till April 1st when it was renewed. So, on April I went to medical city but the doctor there wanted me to sign a waiver that she might remove my uterus. The more I think about it, I realized that I'm not comfortable with that.

So I went to St. Luke's. The doctor there said there's no need for myomectomy at all. He just gave me meds for my mens. Inse then convinced me to go to Cebu to see her OB who is quite known there. It was indeed a good decision. The OB there also told me I dont need a surgery at all. Turned out, she was Dr. Moran's friend. She was compassionate, positive and reassuring.

I then went to visit my friends there like Lalang and Michelle from UP.

My relatives from Carmen were also there since Mama Andring had her check up.

All in all, it was a fun trip. Thanks God.

Lenten thoughts

Dear God,

I know Im a sinner and I held my flaws before my eyes. At times (rather most of the time), I cannot control my anger, bitterness, arrogance, sarcasm, cynicism and other negative and sinful emotions and thoughts. I don't know, I used to be so passionate, so idealistic, so full of zeal, so trusting and seems to be full of faith. But now, what has become of me. I tend to be a control freak that when things dont go the way I planned it, I get furious.

A lot of things has happened in my life, though, not on the extremes, but has brought me to this point of doubt, unbelief and faithlessness. Finances, domestic, family, work... every time I encounter some problems, instead of getting to You, I go to me, trying to solve things on my own and when things go awry, I blame You.

Father God, I have experienced your goodness countless times yet when trial comes my way I become a doubting thomas and at at times, I question you. Though I know deep inside no one else can help me except You and that everything should start and end with You.

I have been through a lot lately yet I know that you never have failed me nor let go of me, You have always been there and though sometimes I deny it, subsequent circumstances have proven time and again that you've been there. Besides, you'll never forget to fulfill your promise. You promised in your Word that you will not leave me nor forsake me and you always do.

Help me to pray constantly, help me to put my faith in You, and everytime I have a problem, help me to look to you first.

I love you God, I know you know. Help me to manifest it in thoughts, words and deeds.

In you I surrender.

Black Saturday 2011

Today, April 23, 2011 is Black Saturday and we just arrived home from day swimming at Villa Celedonia Resort. Nanay didn't want to go so she stayed home. We went there along with the Proj. 8 folks. As usual, Ron enjoyed it so much that he was crying while "binabanlawan". He fell asleep while on the van and when he woke up and realized he was home already, he went "amuk". We can hardly contain him.

While on the resort, he discovered that with salbabida, he will just float and not drown despite how deep the water is. He even wanted to go to the 10 feet area. On the slides, he can slide and drop in water 3 feet deep. He did this repeatedly. On the 10 feet deep slide, he went about 8 times with Daddy.

Summer Class Holy Infant Montessori

After serious thoughts, I decided to enroll Ron at HIMC and Dada and Nanay supported me in htis decision. Hence, on April 13 Dada enrolled Ron here for summer class. I reckon that he is going to need it in preparation for June nursery class. April 14 is his 1st day and I accompanied him. Here are the photos on his first day.

Ron is quite used to a classroom since he's been with Gymboree as early as when he was one year old. that He immediately got some toys and started playing. He like the blocks and the puzzles.

The following day, it was Nanay who accompanied him and I was told he kicked a girl classmate who kept on following him. He he.

Well, Ron I hope that you will get really good education, follow the path of righteousness with God and be successful.

OT: Me, Dada, Ron and Nanay watched the movie Rio at SM Nova on April 20 and there was just the 4 of us during that screening time.